What’s your number?

Does anyone’s enneagram number mess with you at times? I am a 2, but a hard wing 1. My 2 says I want help and I need to accept help however, it’s a struggle. 

For instance, Eddie prepares the coffee every night before we go to bed. I try to take as much off of him as possible on Saturday, even little things. If you don’t know, he’s a pastor so Saturday is a tough day mentally for him so there’s that. Anyway, I do the coffee before bed on Saturday night. Recently on a Saturday night I was in the bathroom washing my face and I heard him in the kitchen making the coffee. Panic set in. It was my turn. It was my night. It was my job. Anyone else hear my 1 screaming loudly in my head?   I thought that he thought I had forgotten. Guilt rushed in. He was actually just trying to help because I had had a super busy day. My “2” screams to appreciate the help and just go with it. However, my “1” won! My internal standards and need for perfection caused me to fuss at him for doing my “job” as I profusely informed him that I had not forgotten. Being perfect and capable of doing everything myself failed again.

Can anyone relate?